Deaf NOT dumb!

Hiii, everyone. I would love to share this wonderful link created by ''deafnotdumb'' produced by Samira, Khayrun & Maab and they won the first prize from taking a part in 'Abode Youth Voices' competition. :D so, here's the link to their brilliant video. ENJOY and please share this with the deaf community, many thanks! mwahs xxx 

http://youthvoices.adobe.com/galleries/media/233 

More sleep? Yes please.

I've had no idea why I'm writing this random post at 4.23.am. I honestly can say I'm unbelieveably shattered after work and I attended to a lovely wedding reception today in Croydon hence the tiredness. And I cannot wait to sleep and my bed have been feeling neglected lately, hah. The best thing is that I'll get to sleep all day tomorrow, well not literally, which is much needed. *snuggles* 

Have a lovey Saturday.  

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Being deaf.

When I was a little girl, I used to cry to my mother 'why are they staring at me?’ she always said to me ‘they’re only looking at you because you are beautiful' I smiled, ignored the world and play with my doll. Little not did I know they were looking at me because I was signing. I have come to a realisation that adults always tell little ‘’white lies’’ of course they do it because they’re parents and their job is to protect their own child/ren.

Growing up, not fully understood what being deaf is and how does it affect me especially my family, when I was old enough to realise, I have experienced bullies, barriers, miscommunication, misunderstands and many more. People used to think I can’t speak English when I can but I don’t understand them, there were too many times I have left feeling so frustrated when I try my hardest to communicate with them and they give up. I often felt so angry with them and the world, that remind me of one time; when I was at Superdrug’s, I was tried some make up on with the ‘tester’ label on it. A lady came to me said something that I don’t understand, I looked at my little sister, she sign to me, and I used my voice to the lady. The lady rudely ignored me and keep talking to my little sister that made me so angry, I shouted at her, tell her to look at me and talk to me. I don’t know if I’m being selfish but there's no way I'll let my little sister interpreting for me.

I sometime used to stare at my little sister who is hearing, talking on the phone and I used to wonder ‘’how is that possible?’’ because all I was hearing silence and I know she was talking because her mouth was moving, I have a wonderful skill which is to lipread people which has benefit me too much but it is very hard work. I remember one summer, when my siblings used to complain during that time about the birds, how were they annoying. It was something to do with their chirping or singing that interrupt them at a silly hour of the clock. I remember thinking I don’t understand why you’re complaining, if it was me, I wouldn’t complain and I’d listen to the beautiful sound and appreciate it that lead me being so curious and I have too many questions to ask, i.e. ‘can you understand other language?' 'People with different accents?’ just those silly questions but then again, I was only a child.

Also growing up in a hearing school, I often got asked such silly questions for instance; ‘how do you learn to sign?’ I replied with a sarcasm answer ‘’the same way you learn how to speak’ they don’t get it which was my point because I don’t remember how I learnt to sign. Anyway, my main point is when the word ‘deaf’’ come across their minds; they quickly assume that we are just some dumb, mute and disabled people when we are NOT. We merely can do ANYTHING like any hearing person can do, walk, eat, sleep, cook, work, travel, drive, marry and have kids. Except hear. I hate it when people assume the worst of deaf people and they are automatic being so judgmental. If I mention I'm deaf, I get all sorts of looks, it is like they pity me, and I sometime felt so isolated and paranoid with their offensive remarks. But I don't understand why they're being like this. Who says I want to be hearing. When I'm happy living my own life, it is because they have no dignity, respect or empathy. 

Since I was a little girl, I longing to hear all the beautiful sounds like birds chirp, water drips, footsteps, voices especially singing voices for so long and I would love to experience this sounds just for one day. I’d love for everyone to know at least basic sign languages it’ll makes our lives easier. Now I’m 21 years old, and I have accomplish the meaning of ''deaf'' with both the negative and the positive sides of it. I’m proud to be Deaf, I also have met so many beautiful people and I known so many inspirational people around the UK and the world. And I'm happy to be a part of one wonderful and beautiful strong Deaf community. 

Somalia wedding.

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Taking your bra off after wearing it for hours

Taking your bra off after wearing it for hours, this has to be the best feeling in the world, surely? 

Well, I love the feeling because it feels like freedom and I love it when I felt one of the best feelings in the world is after a long, hard day when I finally come home and get to take off my bra... and I felt a little relief, sighed and went ''aaaaaah'' HEAVEN!

I passed my driving test!!

On February 14th 2011... it is Valentine's day, so, Happy Valentine's Day which I find is an other bloody overrated day. It was also the day of my driving test, the day I never thought this day would be here. I wake up at 6am having some mixed feeling, wait for my instructor to pick me up at 7am and we drove to pick up other learner who had a test before me where he failed, which made me to feel slightly more agitated and I was getting more nervous and worried every minutes. My instructor kept assuring me that I would do well; I luckily had 40 minutes to practice before the actual test. When I met my examiner, she calmed me down, explain to me the rules and if I got too nervous, I can stop safely any time, which was a big relief.

After 40 minutes, I thought I did very brilliantly, and I was so worried if I have failed, she smiled at me, and said ''congratulation Moona, you have passed....'' I just shrieked and hug her. Yes, I have passed my driving test for the first time with flying colours, only with 3 mistakes. I can see my instructor walk toward to the car, I gave him thumb up, and he smiled at me, in someway he knew I would pass. I couldn't stop smiling.

I want to text my mother but I decided to tell her face to face, to suprise her so I waited until I get home and I opened the door with a straight face, she run to the door ''darling, have you passed?'' I gave her a nod, smiled and scream ''YES'' she scream and hug me. She couldn't stop smiling and then of course, she start calling everyone to show off her daughter has passed her driving test for the first time and all my sibling couldn't believe it too. I kept telling them, yes I have passed and it is not a joke. I can drive you to anywhere and whenever. I honestly can say they look a little terrified. Haha! Passing my driving test is way better than any valentine's and now, I guess, the world's my oyster!! :D

My usual Fridays...

My usual Fridays evening, I'd be half asleep after a long, crazy, non - stop busy week of work, volunteering, seeing friends, just being busy lead a busy life. Friday evening literally the only time I had time to myself. Why? Parent is out, to their Somali meetings or wedding or dinner parties and whatnot. The kids went to bed and snoozed an immediately after the ''duff'' music of the ending of the Eastenders TV programme.

I had enough time to have a lovely and HOT bubbly bath aah. But sometime I stayed there too long and came out lightheaded. Haha. I was disappointed with my hair and how was it absolute a mess. So, I decide to straighten my hair...for a change. Usually, I'd plait it but I just fancy something different, for now. I'm desperate to dye it like Rihanna, yes am I mad or what? Maybe I'll have some beautiful layers instead.  But I won't worry too much because in two weeks or so, I'm attending to the wedding of the year with my family. Perfect timing for me to go to hairdresser, and have this mess of mine sort out... pronto!

Basically, my normal Friday evening would be to relax watching some films such as; Black Swan, 127 hours, Inception and then sip my cup of tea whilst tweet to my followers with my feet up, aah bliss! Ain't life perfect? 

Excuse my silly mask. ;) Don’t forget that exfoliate is important and by the way smooth skin rocks!!